Chipper

Tonight I got my 60-day chip. At the same meeting, Ju got her 24-YEAR chip as well. Talk about humbling! I said as much to her.

She didn't agree. "Imagine someone had told you a year ago that you would spend 60 days this summer without drinking," she challenged me. "What would you have said?"

She had me. "That they were full of shit."

"That's right. But you did it."

Indeed I did. My life, curious little train wreck that it is, is exponentially happier and more peaceful than it was 61 days ago. I have never been more honest with or more accepting of myself. Oh, I'm still a fuckup, sure. But I'm not a drunk fuckup.

I love that I was so ambivalent about going to AA. It is the mainstay of my sobriety, so much so that I can't imagine having gotten this far without it. People do, and maybe I could, but I don't even want to try to picture it.

So there it is. Ju says she hasn't been sober for 24 years; she's been sober for a whole bunch of 24 hours. I've heard others put it that way too. I have every reason to believe them. And I'm so very grateful.