Day 88

It's funny: Every time I think that my experiences as an alcoholic could not possibly get any more humbling short of relapse or criminal behavior (either of which could happen if I take the first drink), they do.

Most of the time when this occurs, I feel resentful. I grump and fret. Eventually, hours or days later, I remember that I created the situation through my own actions, whereupon I transfer my resentment to myself. At some point thereafter, I recall that I'm supposed to be gentle with myself. Heh. That's the hardest part of all.

No, wait. Taking responsibility is harder. Well, maybe it's a tossup.

Jeepers, I'm too tired to get into it any deeper than that. More to come.